Well, you won’t get rid of me that easily :)
I didn’t get discouraged because of the breakup nor did I get tired of writing about Korea. On the contrary, my mind is brimming with ideas now more than ever.
The reason for my absence is much more sinister than that. Muahahaha.
…Actually, it’s not funny at all :(
I mentioned a few times on here that I am sick. But what I’ve never done before is mentioned the name of this affliction.
I have myalgic encephalomyelitis (ME). It’s difficult to explain what it is as it is difficult to pronounce, since neither doctors nor researchers really know what’s causing it, nor how to cure it.
But it’s easy to explain what it does to me. It makes me unable to leave the apartment and sometimes even the bed, it makes watching TV, or reading or listening to music almost impossible, as everything, even normal conversation, is too exhausting for me. Which means I live rather lonely, boring and sometimes painful existence.
I have periods where things are better. Where I get out of bed for half an hour or hour a day to study Korean at my desk; where I can sit at the table for lunch and chat with my family; where I can watch YouTube vides about Korea… And I have periods when things are much worse, where even chewing is too exhausting and painful and I have no choice but to spend the whole day in bed, joints aching, heart pounding and my mind a useless mess that has trouble processing even my internal world, let alone the external one.
As you might have guessed, I am in the worse period right now. And it’s been going on for a few months. So I hope you will excuse the somewhat crude language in this post – words don’t come to me easily and once they do they have a nasty habit of blending into the screen and escaping my eyes – and read this to the end.
I have ideas for literally dozens of articles, tutorials, videos, but I can’t make any of them right now, as all of them require me to either get out of the bed to film something or to concentrate long enough to actually explain things.
But don’t worry, I write down all of the ideas I get, and I am stubborn enough not to give up on them no matter how long it takes. So, as soon as I recover a bit, which I do hope will be soon, I’m back in the game of bothering you with my obsession with Korean and Korea.
I want to make a tutorial on a really unusual Korean Android keyboard I use, as I slowly finish off all the steps of learning Korean I promised. I also want to show you some really cute stuff I bought from Korea and also many tips I have on how to make online ordering and shipping from Korea easier. And a shocking thing happened – me, who really doesn’t like any of the Korean dramas I tried watching (I started and gave up on 10… 20… 30? dramas), actually found drama I am crazy about! I want to tell you all about it, and even show you something from it I made myself.
So, trust me when I say, I am more impatient that you are :)